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At record store, beautiful girl behind counter, a group of friends hanging around. Through the window we watch as a weird little man approaches the store. Someone recognizes him for being in love with the woman behind the counter, they are teasing her, and she gets mad. She makes fun of the man who is still outside, saying mockingly, "oohhh, i own a record store toooo, we should hang oouut". The man presses himself against the glass and stays there. She exhaustedly treks outside to confront the man. I'm watching everything intently because I like this girl. There is a heated exchange and she storms off down the street. I run outside as the man starts following her and I follow after them both. She turns into this courtyard where there are people lying in the grass against a fence. The man takes a seat at the opposite side of the court yard and looks on as she bends over to talk to one of the people on the ground and we can see up her skirt. I ask the man, very irritated and sarcastically, "enjoying the view?". He sarcastically replies, "oh yeah, it makes me so happy to see her with him." I look back and she is on the ground now in an embrace with a man who she was talking to. I walk over and crouch beside her. She is crying, he is comforting her. His hands seemingly have free range over her entire body, she asks him "why can't I be gay too?" She is in love with him but he can not love her. I'm watching as he moves his hand wherever he wants to. I touch her too but there is no reaction. I feel her breast and there is no reaction. She is so beautiful but I can't figure where I know her from.

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In a class room full of young students. They are saying fucked up things and I keep asking "what did you just say?' and telling them not to talk like that. It saddens me to hear some of the things that these kids are saying. There's a little girl that particularly affects me. Teachers enter the room and I try to take them to task for letting children talk like this. I'm informed that this is a gifted and talented class room and these kids are special. Everybody is chastising me and I announce that I used to be special too. I feel upset and embarrassed.